It is hard losing a parent, no matter how old you are. Her death was unexpected and being so young, I didn't understand what was happening...only that my mom was in a place called Heaven and I wouldn't see her again. I was very fortunate...my father remarried to a woman who from day 1 was my "mom". She has been my mom now for 31 years and am very grateful to have her in my life but it still doesn't stop the "what ifs" of thinking.
I do think she would love my children as much as their other grandparents do. From what I've been told, she would be as much in love with Hailey as we are and she would be just as proud. I think of her as Hailey's guardian angel...I feel that she watched over her when I couldn't be there...in the NICU...during her open heart surgery. It might sound kooky to some and make others roll their eyes but that is what I believe.
On another note...our newly one year old has turn into a mini-tornado. Her increased mobility of her army crawl/sometimes creeping and gained her access to so many things. She has a new love...her favorite things to do now is standing up. She pulls herself up on anything that stands still. That seems to add to the number of things she can get into. It does make accomplishing things a little more difficult. I have been trying to finish this blog post now for an hour. She keeps grabbing the keyboard...pulling the power cord out...typing...grabbing my arms...grabbing the screen. No matter how far away from the laptop I put her, it is only a matter of minutes (sometimes seconds) and she is right back at it. I do love her persistence and determination :-) I do LOVE that she is into everything. The girl is not going to be a wallflower...she is going to be in the thick of things!
|Busted emptying the diaper basket again!|
|Ian's idea of playing with Hailey...surrounding her with toys.|
|What...I didn't unplug the laptop!|
|No, really...you don't see it!|
|Future "Cowboys Cheerleader" tee...kind of goes with one of last week's posts|
|Have a good weekend!|