I have to admit. Recently I have been down. I've been going crazy over getting Hailey to walk. (Statistically, the average age for a child with Ds to walk is 2). Just like I went crazy for her to support her head...sit up on her own...get herself into a sitting position...army crawling...crawling...cruising. See the pattern? I "might" be goal oriented and a control freak. You see, everything about Hailey challenges me in almost every part of my personality. I'm not a wait and see kind of person. I'm not someone who is patient. I have a tendency to butt heads. Not intentionally. I'm just stubborn...head-strong. Hailey is stubborn...head-strong. Hailey is a go-getter. She sees what she wants and goes after it. Hailey never does anything that she doesn't want to do until she is ready to do it. You would think that I would have accepted that by now. She'll be 21 months old next week. I've had time to adjust. My head knows all of it, but my heart doesn't always get the message. Last night we were all hanging out in the family room. My husband had the Toys R Us ad on his lap. Hailey saw it...let go of the couch and took 6 independent (not touching anything) to grab it. Was she ready to make her Christmas list or did she just want to destroy it? I'm not sure because I took it away from her after I tricked her into walking 4 or 5 more times for it.
I think I finally realized last night that it isn't up to me. I can't will her to walk. I can give her all the tools to walk and help her exercise all the body parts that need to be strong enough to walk, but I can't do it for her. She has to want to...she has to be ready both physically and mentally. So for at least now, I'm loosening the reins. No, she's not getting a "get out of jail free card". She's still going to work at therapy. I'm still going to sneak in walking, kneeling and squatting into every activity I can think of. I'm just not going to let the obsession of her walking overshadow my daughter. Just as Ds does not define Hailey...whether or not she walks does not define how well she is doing.
Let's see how long this zen moment lasts for me :-)
I had the kids' pictures taken this weekend. I don't have the images yet, but here is a sneak peek. I'm excited to see how the rest turn out!